I sit I'm my room claustrophobic

As I watch the walls breath succumbing to self pity

And these voices won't leave

I got a revolver in my hand with six chambers and they all full

Every bullet contradicts the contemplation of suicide

I wanna die. So I sit and clinch my bible until my palms sweat, and blister

Cause I hate my sister

First I'm gonna light a candle in the form of a seance

And see the light on the wall reflect all this childhood neglect

I cock the hammer, I let the steel touch my tongue and taste the metal for the first time, I see the faces of my loved ones

But fuck a note, cause when I do it, I want it to be a mystery, and let them feel the same pain that I felt, this is the remedy

Goodbye, sad days, I'd rather sleep my life away

Goodbye, heartbreak, I found my own way, Suicide

I get on my knees and say a prayer

I tell god that I can't handle all this pressure

I wanna kick it up there

Why should I wanna live? When my mother used to molest me in front of my stepfather

She beat me and he undressed me, see

He took my manhood before I became a man, so now I sit here at 16 with this gun in my hand

Death is the only way out, the murder of myself will show em all the theres a way out

I cry for my soul

Depression has taken a toll on my every existence, so when I think of humiliation I can't breathe

Its time to leave

Cause I'm gone show what you did, for tormenting me as a kid, you raised me, now look what I did

Goodbye, sad days, I'd rather sleep my life away

Goodbye, heartbreak, I found my own way, Suicide

I don't wanna die, I wanna breathe again, I don't wanna have to say.....

Goodbye, sad days, I'd rather sleep my life away

Goodbye, heartbreak, I found my own way, Suicide

My soul is slipping away, I don't wanna leave, not in this way