Bending // Breaking

I remember this feeling so slowly I was being taken by the wind I understood exactly what you wanted Understood that I could never win I fell from the top of their towers I was being taken by the wind The ground looked so inviting But hitting it would mean you'd win And now I hope that I could save A little bit of time by mending pain Not mine or yours at the end of the day But the pain of those that never stayed I've lost so much in such short time My dreams are filled with your eyes 18 months, not enough But 18 months, is all I've got And I'm not sure if I'm Bending or breaking I feel gods and demons Taunting me They say it's all in All in his plan But what kind of plan Would take you from me And it's sickening More than I can describe That people can look me in the eye And say, it's a part of life So fuck you and all of the things That tell you, you have that right Unholy preacher of worthless thoughts I hope you don't wake up tonight And I'm not sure if I'm Bending or breaking I feel gods and demons Taunting me They say it's all in All in his plan But what kind of plan Would take you from me I will live in this pain I will love in this pain I will die in this pain I won't escape from this pain This is where I choose to rot This is where I choose to R̶̈́͝'̛̓̈́͆̇'̆"̽"̇'͘'"͝"̨̧̟̹͎̜̙̺̹̜̼̩͓̬͖͍͇̈̇͜͝ͅö̵́͗͝"'̇͛̚'͒̾͆'"͎̲̜'͈̰̬͜t̷'̛̅͆"̈́̾"̅̐̃̈́̾͝'̧̨͔͓̦͓̟̮̬̪͙̜̹̠