I Can't Breathe

Have you ever felt this weight on your chest That makes it feel like you can't breathe? I have I can't breathe I'm struggling finding the balance between what I want and I need I've been playing with God But it feels like the devils been coaching the team I got so much to say but anxiety whispers and tells me, "Don't speak" I been living on earth but one day I'll go shock 'em and live in my dreams I been lost in mind for a minute, I'm searching for somewhere to go I look right at my mom and I cry, 'cause I wish she didn't have to get old I got all of these people around me but why do I still feel alone? I got all this money, I just bought a house But with nobody in it it isn't a home All of these contacts inside of my phone But I can't come in contact with someone to hold Sometimes I sit in the shower and cry 'Cause the water disguises my tears in the flow Look in mirror I don't see a soul Looking for love when I'm on the road This isn't song, this is poem, God I can't breathe I'm not even tired, but I just want to sleep I'm drowning in pain, it's getting too deep This weight is enormous I'm crying for help but don't nobody see I'm at war in my head everyday, I've been screaming and fighting for peace I'm hurt, my hearts full of rage My life is a book that they can't even read 'Cause I'm beeding on every page Our people are dying too young, man We're tired of commenting all on their page We just said a prayer for one who woke up, and another was taken away Let me know if it's better in space I wanted the money I got and now that I'm rich I have nothing to chase I'd rather be happy and broke than rich with no one to love everyday I know everybody relates I hope that you hear while I pray Me say, God I can't breathe I'm on my knees I'm begging you please They left me for dead, created a storm They thought I would drown, but they didn't know that I am a sea And yes I'm looking for help I wanted to love but I couldn't love, 'cause I didn't love my self I'm done blaming everyone else No more blaming everyone else From now on I'm blaming myself I can't breathe I'm struggling finding the balance between what I want and I need I've been playing with God But it feels like the devils been coaching the team I got so much to say but anxiety whispers and tells me, "Don't speak" I been living on earth but one day I'll go shock 'em and live in my dreams I'm struggling finding the balance between what I want and I need I've been playing with God But it feels like the devils been coaching the team I got so much to say but anxiety whispers and tells me, "Don't speak" I been living on earth but one day I'll go shock 'em and live in my dreams I can't breathe Not tired but I sleep I cry, yes I weep They don't know what I need I can't breathe I'm struggling finding the balance between what I want and I need I've been playing with God But it feels like the devils been coaching the team I got so much to say but anxiety whispers and tells me, "Don't speak" I been living on earth but one day I'll go shock 'em and live in my dreams I can't breathe I can't breathe I can't breathe I can't Breathe