So Cold

Oh you can't hear me cry See my dreams all die From where you standing On your own It's so quiet here And I feel so cold This house no longer feels like home I was always laying on the floor Lord forgive me, I'm dreaming about something more Lord, I'm always insecure But I wanna be pure When I grew up I was sure I was never good enough for the Lord Let alone my parents whom I adore So I learned to hide My guilt always hanging by my side My shame killing me inside But I Never felt whole, only half alive Just lay here on my bed and cry All these demons, that I'm fighting wanting me to die Let me keep on dreaming Don't wake me up, that day is nearing When he's calling names, I'm hearing My name won't be called is what I'm fearing So in this race Lord, let me keep persevering I wanna hear my name and the angels cheering Oh you can't hear me cry See my dreams all die From where you standing On your own It's so quiet here, and I feel so cold This house no longer feels like home It's so cold up in my mind Full of dreams that I let die I need help, something divine All my burdens, gotta leave them behind It takes prayer, faith and time Right now I'm in a murky place Still wishing I could rewind And take back all of my mistakes I need to get a new mind I'm broken, it's something that I'm always showing I want to keep growing, be whole before the morning Come, closer Lord, I'm mourning, I need you to keep going Hear my plea it's ongoing Before I start slowing Give me all of you 'till I'm overflowing Keep me from my sin, it separates I need to let you in, it liberates So when you call my name I can walk through those pearly gates Oh you can't hear me cry See my dreams all die From where you standing On your own It's so quiet here, and I feel so cold This house no longer feels like home I left you all alone You saw my cry and saw my dreams die So I can't lie, without you I'm crazy You gave all of you, so I'm giving all of me