Twenty Twenties

I was hoping that I'd see you I'd get to hug you in the twenty-twenties Even though you'd rather not be You'd be smiling in the twenty-twenties Pretending that we're unaware how bad things are Like they're not there, no The one who always had my back Who fought my fights is backing down But I don't even know I can't express how much I thank you for the things you've taught me all my life You don't even know how brave you were alive I promise you'll always be with me Even when they say you've died (when they say you've died) Mom found the notes that you have left The things that you have said Oh, God The cookies are missing, just the taste I'm missing your embrace Oh, God Pretending everything is the same Distracted by the things we say But what about her? What about her, now? Who's to say you're better now? I'll make this song a pitch to God So God, please What about her? I don't even know I can't express how much I thank you for the things you've taught me all my life You don't even know how brave you were alive I promise you'll always be with me Even when they say you've died And maybe it's for the best You're not in this whole mess 'Cause you are too good You wouldn't deserve this And I know I could never in a thousand years or ever Write everything there is about you Do justice to my most precious I was hoping that I'd see her I'd get to hug you in the twenty-twenties Even though you'd rather not be You'd be smiling in the twenty-twenties