Of Uncertainty

From where I'm holding down Relentless Protecting my Relaxation Or so I thought I began to Question it all Doubt from within Strangled my wits To choke out the best Part of my being I fed it backwards Back towards my gut Yet I still hunger Yet I'm not broken Bent at the knees Though I've been here before Don't you judge me While I'm pushing for change Sound the alarms because I am awake Feast Feast From within First it craves And then devours It starts in my throat Then drips to my loins Then it comes out In undesirable ways I laugh at myself 'most everyday Yet I'm not broken Bent at the knees Though I've been here before Don't you judge me While I'm pushing for change Sound the alarms because I am awake From where I'm holding down Relentless Protecting my Relaxation Or so I thought I began to question it all Yet I'm not Broken From where I hold From where I'm holding on Bent at the knees Though I've been here before Don't you judge me While I'm pushing for change Sound the alarms because I am awake He cannot control it He can no longer sit still He can't stop believing That he's not getting ill Pardon my uncertainty There's a wall breaking my pace Shame it's one I've built To stand in my own way And I won't sit still When there's more to build Even if I had a chance There'd be an excuse to find an easier way To make my day to day But I won't let disappointment pave my way And I can't let disappointment pave my way And I won't let disappointment pave my way Pave my way Pave my way Pave my way