You'd Never Know

You'd never know I was fighting for my life eight months ago I shut the door and covered the windows 'Cause the sunlight hurt my eyes I couldn't even go outside for so, so long And you couldn't tell But the inside of my head was a living hell I tried my best explaining how it felt but nobody ever understood Doctor said that everything looks good So, I blamed myself I don't think I've ever been so lonely Didn't know if I would make it out The dead of the winter of my life In the middle of the summertime And it still haunts me now But you'd never know That it took me months just to step outside alone 'Cause my body still gets tense when I walk home Past the spot where it all went dark It's like a movie flashing back in parts That cuts deep and slow Oh, I don't think I've ever been so lonely Didn't know if I would make it out The dead of the winter of my life In the middle of the summertime And it still haunts me now Everyone said, "You look fine from the outside" But in my mind, I was upside down and screamin' "What the hell is wrong with me?" Oh Trying to make it make sense, makin' my head spin Now I pray to forget 'Cause I'm still here screamin' "What the hell is wrong with me?" But you'd never know Oh, you'd never know No, no