if I was gay

If I was gay would I be What they say just a stereotype If I was gay how do I get to heaven When there's "no church in the wild" Tried to be honest But honestly I can't No I can't If love is the same Why is this not the same thing The same thing I've never kissed a boy Would I like the way it feels Picturing his face and I loose a piece of me Play me all the classic love songs on repeat Non of them talk about what I feel I've never kissed a boy I've been trying to fit in Kept a candle burning, a lamp unto my feet Play me all the classic love songs on repeat Non of them talk about what I feel If I was gay there would be no friends left. And I don't want that If I was gay my mum and dad would treat me And I can't handle that shit Tried to be honest But honestly I can't No I can't If love is the same Why is this not the same thing The same thing I've never kissed a boy Would I like the way it feels Picturing his face and I loose a piece of me Play me all the classic love songs on repeat Non of them talk about what I feel I've never kissed a boy I've been trying to fit in Kept a candle burning, a lamp unto my feet Play me all the classic love songs on repeat Non of them talk about what I feel All the time I've wasted trying to replace the Part of myself that was keeping me straight It just made me a product of it. So where do I fit in? Nothing can replace the scars on my body, Can't talk to nobody. I'm numb I've never kissed a boy Would I like the way it feels? Picturing his face and I loose a piece of me Play me all the classic love songs on repeat Non of them talk about what I feel