So Numb It Hurts

(Baby, you don't deserve) Baby I need to know If I could stand my heart 'til It might be the numbness on repeat, oh Yeah Get too numb, my heart is in pieces You talk shit, complain for no reason All these feelings I gotta keep in Said you love me, you do not mean it Hatred you're hiding, you curse when I'm cryin' Not dead, but I'm dyin' inside with no sirens I'm locked in my heart, and outside is a giant Who picks me apart and then leaves me in silence You gotta watch it; I'm too unstable I gotta stop it, can't live these fables Said that I'm toxic with my hand in my pocket Leaving me with no option, but to break this table Six months in, got a bruise and such Everybody goes mad when you're too in love I gotta work on myself, should be movin' up But in a small world, there's only two of us I need to know If I could stand my heart 'til It might be the numbness on repeat All my days get longer, nights get colder Got a brand-new devil up on my shoulder No angels here, yeah, no light to show Yeah, how am I too weak to meet your quota? It's a process, why do I listen to all the gossip? Not yet, maybe I'm thinking that we could prosper Not sure, maybe you're better without a partner My heart hurts, why does it feel like we're taking sharp turns? Fuck it though I know reality's opposite From all the feelings That leave when I'm off of it Mangled relations that stay in my basement It's hard to look down when you live in acropolis You're not really mine (not really mine) I'm not really yours (not really yours) Who's feeling worse? We're so numb it hurts Baby I need to know If I could stand my heart 'til It might be the numbness on repeat