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Hello?
Hip-Hop/Rap
Hello? wurde am 2. Dezember 2022 von YNA Music als Teil des Albums veröffentlichtStranded
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Veröffentlichungsdatum2. Dezember 2022
LabelYNA Music
Melodizität
Akustizität
Valence
Tanzbarkeit
Energie
BPM153

Musikvideo

Musikvideo

Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS
St. Nam
St. Nam
Performer
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Manny Kerpelis
Manny Kerpelis
Composer

Songtexte

Dear future me…
Life has been hard
I’ve noticed things aren’t what they seemed
Everything feels different
Maybe it’s just me?
But family and so called friends
Have turned their backs on me
I’ve been carrying so much pain
That I’ve been losing a lot of sleep
At night I hear voices
I’ve been seeing wicked things
If you are reading this now
Please tell me it gets better
I want to have hopes and dreams
But I’m starting to think that
Is it out of my reach?
Do I deserve any peace
The voices in my head
Are telling me that I deserve to be
6 feet deep, so I want to try again
But I know my mom will take the blame
And my dad will take his anger out on her
So I bottle all my emotions
So these issues won’t get any worse
Hearing my mom crying at night
Praying To God
As I question my self worth
I want to know my own purpose
Searching for answers
In my pointless questions
So it feels like I’m stranded…
Time flying past my eyes
I wish I wasn’t low now
Thoughts that make slow down
Sober me
Trying to find peace
In a ghost town
Married but alone how?
Telling me to calm down
I don’t know
Nah I don’t go
Nah I don’t wanna fight
I don’t want to yell
Listing off my issues
Like I know the deal
I’m not perfect
But I know you care
Wishing I can go back
And face my fears
Saying Hello
To the younger me
I wish I was there
Nah I wasn’t there
Writing letters to myself
Didn’t know what would help
So depressed
Issues left unchecked
Wish I could
Call my dad for help
But he called me weak
And later we would yell
Back and forth
It felt like I was
Living in Hell
Daily basis situations
Always aggravated
Didn’t like his tone
Feeling frustrated
To this day
He still doesn’t know
That he was
One of my reasons
That I loaded the gun
Shoved the barrel
To my head
So I won’t have to
Live another moment
Arguing about stuff
That doesn’t matter
All you did is
Is expect perfection
Even when I did succeed
It was never enough
Never proud
I’m dead inside
I wanted to give up
List of issues
That goes on
Deeper darker
Mental torment
Telling people
My life is great
But don’t talk
About our hate
Towards each other
They don’t know
That you broke down
Saying that you failed
Trying to make me perfect
But you really broke me
Asking for forgiveness and I did
But in the back of my mind
I won’t forgive you
For what you did.
Time flying past my eyes
I wish I wasn’t low now
Thoughts that make slow down
Sober me
Trying to find peace
In a ghost town
Married but alone how?
Telling me to calm down
I don’t know
Nah I don’t go
Nah I don’t wanna fight
I don’t want to yell
Listing off my issues
Like I know the deal
I’m not perfect
But I know you care
Wishing I can go back
And face my fears
Saying Hello
To the younger me
I wish I was there
Nah I wasn’t there
Writing letters to myself
Didn’t know what would help
So depressed
Issues left unchecked
Wishing I called my mom for help
But she’s too depressed
Dealing with her own issues
Who would have guessed
She’s just like me
Carrying all her pain
Weighing her back,
I want her to relax
Didn’t want to add more stress
Because I love my mom,
But I was worried
On how she’d react
To finding my body
On the floor, wishing
That I helped more
To make her happy
So she doesn’t need
To those pop pills
To ease the pain
I can hear her scream
I want to tell her it’s okay
Had my own demons
Waiting on my bed
Laughing, Dragging me down
Into a nightmare that felt so real
Or maybe it was inside my head
It doesn’t change the fact
That I wanted to be dead
Maybe I’ll make it quick
And tell her I love her
And not to be scared
Only way
I can bury these issues
Is if I’m buried too
But I wrote these
Suicide notes
Hoping it would improve
But plans fell through
And I was on my own
Traveling a lonely road
Looking at my reflection
And all I see is my flaws
Pulling through
Time flying past my eyes
I wish I wasn’t low now
Thoughts that make slow down
Sober me
Trying to find peace
In a ghost town
Married but alone how?
Telling me to calm down
I don’t know
Nah I don’t go
Nah I don’t wanna fight
I don’t want to yell
Listing off my issues
Like I know the deal
I’m not perfect
But I know you care
Wishing I can go back
And face my fears
Saying Hello
To the younger me
I wish I was there
Nah I wasn’t there
Dear future me,
I’m tired of thinking
That life will get better
As I grow older,
I’m starting to think that
Happiness isn’t real
And these voices are
Finally starting to weigh on me
I don’t think I will be able
To hold out much longer,
If you’re reading this now
Then I probably didn’t succeed
Mom if you’re reading this now
Then I’m sorry I couldn’t be
Whatever you saw in me.
Ending this letter,
Dating it,
October 3rd, 2014
Written by: Manny Kerpelis
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