Cautiously Optimistic

I used to get in fights to bitter ends for shitty friends back Before I realized the toll it takes I used to end my nights all teary eyed in the Uber ride home Before you had your own drawer at my place As I've been told by boys I know I'm the most jaded girl they know I've always been painfully realistic But now I'm cautiously optimistic When I think about my high school crush, how I held a grudge 'cause I had to watch him dance with her at prom But now I'm learning how to make my peace with that Packing all my bags and leave the past Keep the dress and move on As I've been told by boys I know I'm the most jaded girl they know I've always been painfully realistic But now I'm cautiously optimistic I still miss my friends, I still wonder what I should've said I still feel alone when I'm in the car on my way home 18 was rough being the girl running out of the prom 'Cause she wasn't enough But now I'm in love I've always been painfully realistic But now I'm cautiously optimistic