Will I Ever Be Good Enough?

You know, I wake up and look outside my windows And think of how beautiful it is to live on this planet we call Earth But then I hold my breath for just a minute And wonder where it all went wrong I question my sanity Debate within myself, if it was all me for this wrongdoing Or if my mistakes led me here Or if I'll ever make it out Why am I such a fuck up, I ask myself? Why do I deserve to live another day If all I do is make mistake, after mistake, after mistake And never see any form of improvement I deserve to die, don't I? I don't even deserve to be here right now. I'm a shell of who I used to be I don't even feel human at this point This isn't normal, not for me at least I just wish I could take back lost time And recover all the inconsistencies in my story Patch up all the areas that are broken And replace it with good memories But that's impossible. I have these unrealistic dreams But even if there was just a small crack To where it could be possible for just a second I'd take it in a heartbeat I just want to feel whole again I don't want to feel as if I'm a burden to everyone Or that I'm not good enough But that's how I see myself A failure, that's all I ever was And all I ever will be Will I ever be good enough?