20Mg

I try to stay calm, focus on my breath It's like I drown in a sea of sand Everything's black, everything's cold A second is a new thought for me Life I won't miss, two pills I will take Three hours of bliss, four more I'm in hell Five days I'm asleep, six that I'm insane I don't wanna feel the pain I have a fear for livin' 'Cause I don't wanna be a fuckin' mess I relive in my nightmares 'Cause it's the only way I can rest I'm not okay, I'm not the same My head's screamin' but I'm standin' still Trapped in a lie that's made of drugs I pray inside, someone breaks my sleep My ocean's made of dust And I've been dyin' here of thirst It's like I'm divin' in the mud Every time I try to reach for the worst Tell me I should live, tell me I should care Tell me I should move, but I don't feel safe here This is end time out of my bed It's like I'm tryna ride an avalanche If time is the key, then I locked myself into my own black hole You are not a savior if you're tellin' me it's just a phase You're a motherfucker if you're tellin' me it's just a phase Now you need to fuckin' hear me now No one, no one will bring me down Merde j'sais pas où j'me réveille J'suis peut-être encore dans un mauvais rêve, rêve noir Le silence est une violence saine, j'suis devenu sourd J'suis devenu soûl d'mes peines Seul dans la nuit et 20 milli' J'perds pied dans une eau sombre qui m'entraîne vers Lucifer, l'enfer I'm not okay, I'm not the same My head's screamin' but I'm standin' still Trapped in a lie that's made of drugs I pray inside, pray That I'm not alone, that you realize Sometimes a word could save a life I'm not okay, I'm not the same The night is young and yet so bright At last, I'm saved, my heart is light A smile designed for my peace of mind I loved you for not givin' up on mine