Now I Know

I swear it's funny how it goes Looking back with all I know I'd still relive every low 'Came essential to my growth, but Tell me that back when I was at my lowest Wouldn't hear it, I was empty, I was soulless Yeah life was dim, I was trapped in my mind Was lonely all the time, and my thoughts were not kind Just stuck on rewind, obsessed with passed time I left behind I used to feel jaded I used be gated I used to be faded all god damn day I used be hating The man in the mirror Felt nothing but fear, shame, disgust for me I was battling demons inside my mind cause my shadow contained my pain Was constraining my inner child, no affection that could remain A perfection I can't obtain and connections I can't maintain Just reflections while looking at who I became But I used to get faded everyday to cope I was high and sedated didn't have no hope Always lonely and hated by myself so low low low low But now I know That this life is game, yeah it is all a joke You don't live it you play it, take control and go Give a fuck if you hate me, I don't care no more no more oh Now I know oh oh oh Life be different nowadays I don't care what they be thinking I don't care about their praise I ain't crippled by anxiety Depressed and hating me I ain't tripping when it's grey I just wake up and I play Now when they hate on me It don't be facing me Be motivating me Feel like they be praising me It validate me Knowing that they hate me Show me what I'm making got them fearing for their safety I'm just feeling grateful I made it to where I'm at Ain't forgotten where I came from, I'm dying 'fore turning back I was haunted by my shadow, my soul was darker than black Thought my value was determined by others and what I lack Now I know that I am worth it, my mental became my wealth It's okay if I ain't perfect, don't need to be someone else Went from lonely, suicidal, not caring about my health To somebody that can say "I love myself" But I used to get faded everyday to cope I was high and sedated didn't have no hope Always lonely and hated by myself so low low low low But now I know That this life is game, yeah it is all a joke You don't live it you play it, take control and go Give a fuck if you hate me, I don't care no more no more oh Now I know oh oh oh Oh-ah-ah-ah-ah Oh-ah-ah-ah-ah Oh-ah-ah-ah-ah Oh-ah-ah-ah-ah Oh-ah-ah-ah-ah Oh-ah-ah-ah-ah Oh-ah-ah-ah-ah Oh-ah I used to get faded everyday to cope I was high and sedated didn't have no hope Always lonely and hated by myself so low low low low But now I know That this life is game, yeah it is all a joke You don't live it you play it, take control and go Give a fuck if you hate me, I don't care no more no more oh Now I know oh oh oh