She Ruins Everything

Used to ride bikes now, I ride a fine line between Long nights and my ever-shrinking sanity Covering all the mirrors, 'cause strangers aren't welcome here I could make a long list of all my insecurities Then I could fix 'em, but who would keep me company? Friends with my biggest fears, passed on my better years Now I just got so much on my shoulders I'm a little dim, a little colder The younger me just wished that she was older At 24, I wish somebody told her She cries herself to sleep Dies when people leave Takes a little pill to hide the way She's drowning in the growing pains Killed the fantasy, for 'matter of time' mentality Little me was wondering who she'd be What a shame to see She ruins everything She ruins everything, everything Back handsprings for people who won't do the same Bad landing, I fell in a hole and I stayed Bad at cutting habits, good at cutting wings Not to be dramatic, but scissors kinda sting So much on my shoulders I'm a little bitter, little colder The younger me just wish that she was older God, I fucking wish somebody told her She cries herself to sleep Dies when people leave Takes a little pill to hide the way She's drowning in the growing pains Killed the fantasy, for 'matter of time' mentality Little me was wondering who she'd be What a shame to see She ruins everything She ruins everything Back when tragedy was falling off the swings Back to running to my mom when my heart sinks What a shame to see, she ruins everything I ruin everything