Ikigai

Whoa, whoa Whoa, whoa-whoa, whoa I never left, I was growin' I was on tour back in 2013 before y'all had a high school diploma Too busy grindin' and being on TV to actually live in the moment Before Canon was making affordable cameras, I was already in focus Before content was even a word I ain't think that I had time to waste So TikTok was clocks and it had me concerned Musically, I was on musically Flow was too mucussy, sick with it, dribble the verse We talkin' about viral sensations Creating a wave in the game, they know I did it first It was a blur, I'm better than ever Ask how I'm doing? Never been better If I'm a boomer, turn up the treble This album I'm reachin' a whole 'nother level Don't ever settle I was complacent, I put me adjacent and I shoulda never Thought I was out of my prime before I ever touched it And moved on to different endeavors Huh, yeah Now Hunter got me on kill mode If I come to kick it, we winnin' And if it's foot and inches, y'all puntin' the field goal Your problem is y'all ain't got real goals Your problem is changing, ain't real gold Your problems is if you don't work on yourself Then your wealth will always be real low Still cold, cover my son's ears I'm AZ's king and I ain't even from here Moved to LA, said, "I already won here" I moved back, got a bunch of people to come here And what's weird? I ain't show nothing but love here Made a whole lane for the people to bump here I built a platform for the people to learn from And kick down doors that was always shut here Yeah, but you gotta fall back sometime Take a whole new path sometime Know we all get mad sometime, I do Yeah, spill my soul on the track sometime Reminisce on the past sometime Know we all relapse sometime, it's true How are you? I'm just asking 'cause nobody asks me I'm always busy so I don't expect you to ever think it's going badly Honestly, I don't know family Honestly, I don't know how to be friends with nobody 'cause they always stab me Or leave me to never hit back I look in the mirror and question Then head off to therapy sessions to find me the answers The common denominator in the mirror, it appears that I must be the cancer All of this pressure that's measured by money and fame, the things I obtain Try to remain the same, it's been in my frame When progress seems to be me going backwards Yeah, every time that I bet on myself Somehow, I hurt everyone else My music is left on the shelf I'm lookin' for things I ain't felt I wonder if they exist Sometimes I think it's a curse to be born with a gift I don't know It's like everyone hates me unless they can manipulate me Unless they can get the version of me that they see in they dreams It's a nightmare to be in my shadow when they wake The separation from my own meditation calms the trees that used to shake And without chaos, they break When I no longer relate and because things are going great There's not really a place and misery loves company, so they come for me Instead of comfort me because they see luxury And those who coulda stuck with me Chose to run from me and throw dirt on my name No matter how much money, time, heart, soul, resources, or food on they plate Somehow, I made the mistake for wanting them to be great And I'll take that blame like Akon 'Cause I know when my day's gone My intent was always to be the best version of myself And help you see the true you And improve on the things that made you smile I've built house after house after house And watched it burn down and felt burnt out But I learned now Peace within myself allows me to go unfazed I choose happiness every day And I hope tomorrow you do the same, for real