Not Now I'm Busy (feat. Nefertitti Avani)

Don't tell me that shit didn't record, man Man, let's try this again My name is Joyner Lucas I'm from Worcester, Massachusetts And, uh By this time you get this video, it might be too late I did something really, really bad, man I killed somebody tonight, yeah I did And I don't know if I shoulda did it, but I felt like it was necessary, nah mean? The person who I killed was the old me (the old me) Yeah, see I realized that everything I ever thought I knew about myself was wrong And I realized that I had to sacrifice who I was For who I wanna become And I when I say, "Not now, I'm busy" That means I was too busy to face myself And too busy to face the truth And the truth is The old me got tooken advantage of The old me got fucked over The old me got beat down The old me got shit on and spitted on and lied to And even though I tried to forgive And force myself to live with the hurt that I hide behind a smile While the water overflows as I hold my breath And block my nose in hopes that I do not drown And in that moment, I realized that I was lost and couldn't be found And I needed to heal, I just didn't know how So I grabbed that gun and did what had to be done 'Cause I couldn't hide, I couldn't run I just had to die and every drop of blood Was for every tear that I ever bottled up, now it's a flood So fuck who you thought I was, you piece of shit The old me says please forgive, but new me says eat a dick The old me was supposed to give, the new me don't owe you shit The old me just don't exist, so fuck you, you- I don't need emotions, I need endorphins (Keep it down, keep it down, shh) oh, whoa Don't know the pain, that it come with the game Don't know the sun gon' come after the rain You been turnin' nothin' into something (Keep it down, keep it down, shh) Ain't fuckin' helpful, to be real with ya All I hear is interruptions Baby, not now (oh) Pipe down (oh) Baby, not now (not now) Pipe down, not now, I'm busy Baby, not now (oh) Pipe down (oh) Baby, not now (not now) Pipe down, not now, I'm busy