My whole life i've watched my family battle with addiction, alcoholism, whatever it might be I always said I wouldn't be it but honestly I don't see no difference

Making this change in my life

Making that change for the better

Hate when I look in the mirror all I see is a failure

I gotta put it in gear I gotta grind until failure

Drums got me dying inside, something that i'll never tell ya

I'm tryna be clean but I see all the dirty on my feet

Not tryna be mean but I see the difference it's making in me

Fighting withdraws make me know I'm a fein

Blowing the plug when I run out of green

And if I don't smoke then you know I can't eat

Fighting depression I'm battling me

I've been hurt but I know I ain't been through the worst

Pilin problems I need to revert

Revealing it all just like a skirt

Need to reverse but I know I that this gift ain't a curse

Give it to God with every verse

All of my flaws I need to reverse

My grandma drank her life away, I'm not okay

Gotta stand up, God gon lead the way, just have faith

I've been damaged, I've been broken need a man up

God I need some back up, Flow can you give me a hand up

What's going on I can tell that your hurting

Look in your room and its dirty

Look at them wounds I can tell that it's deeper than surface

Look in your eyes and your nervous

I think they did it on purpose

Applying that pressure they making you earn it

Do it or don't you can't wait for the sermain

Member that man that was born of a virgin

Cuz he be remembering you

I mean, even the demons believe

That he, went in the cave for the three days

What's that he said she said stuff finna do for you

Not nun, not now, not never

Slip in your skin like a splinter

Taking them drugs you won't never be better

Taking them drugs you won't never be better

I'm tryna be clean but I see all the dirty on my feet

Not tryna be mean but I see the difference it's making in me

Fighting withdraws make me know I'm a fein

Blowing the plug when I run out of green

And if I don't smoke then you know I can't eat

Fighting depression I'm battling me

Imma take yall back to when I was a child

With all of the things that I seen

My father was gone till I wasn't a teen

But I had Chris and he gave me the keys

He went to the bar with my mom

When they came home they was way to drunk

Arguing fighting went all night long

Got images stuck in my head and they haunt

Imprisonment sentences

Taken by cps

All different things and I still do not love them less

Talk to the dad on the phone, accepting the charges I put in the code

Family got locked, for the meth and the coke

Shopping at burlington; hat in the coat

Selling and burgling; all I was showed

All my role models they gave me no hope

I've been hurt but I know I ain't been through the worst

Pilin problems I need to revert

Revealing it all just like a skirt

Need to reverse but I know I that this gift ain't a curse

Give it to God with every verse

All of my flaws I need to reverse