Yeah, it felt like the torture would never end

I went to the operating room, three times

I'm on the mend

I'm on the meds, they gave me withdrawals

They had me hurlin

My stomach hurts worse than the back surgery

I wish I could go back and never lift that stupid reel

Tell my boss to screw off and that it's not worth it

My back was a ticking time bomb, it exploded

And now I'm the guy payin' for it

And I'm done man, I can't go back

I just tell my son the way to properly lift

And how not to get burned

My eyes have always been bigger than my back

Is it pride or maybe boredom

Put some more weight on the rack

These bars have been held more weight than most people

I lived through hell and back in hell and back sequel

My doctor needed to clean through

The disease in my back that would bleed through

I kept tryin' to do the right thing, I got my way to proceed to

The number ticket in my hand, when the numbers due?

Will this be the painless one

I hope it comes soon

You were right, and I was so wrong

I left you there on your own

Recovery left me weak when I was strong

But tonight I wanna make it all up

Yeah, oxycodone, got me a false sense of recovery

As soon as it's gone, you're worse than the injury

The doctors look at me like a price tag

It's hard to not feel like the doctors wonder where the dice land

It's a gamble, it's easy because it's not their back

Without my wife I would've probably had to throw in the rag

This is the hardest thing I ever had to do

And imagine I don't see the color drain from your face

The downfall of a guy just tryin' to run his race

It's crazy and it sucks because I'm only 28

I got a wife and a baby and I feel like I'm late

I'm late to the point where I should say sorry

I can't escape the feeling of feeling sorry

Like I'm sorry, sorrow circles me

I ran out of road on the TV screen

And now I'm stuck here doomscrolling cause I'm weak

I'm recovering but it only comes crashing down on me

Everything that I have is nice but I'm beat

And if I'm beat, then I'm gonna need some Logic X

Some people get on the mic to blot out their blemishes

But I'm just Moses who was looking for sun burning bushes

And I'm starting to find God's voice in all the noises

There are so many choices but I only have one voice

I tell myself I'm walking but I'm still on the crutches

Two Corinthians 12, stronger than our weaknesses

God gave me a thorn in my side to humble me

To keep me from being conceited and blowing in the wind like a tumbleweed But follow me, nah I just say to follow Jesus