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like why am i down n out

noise steady drowning out

feels like i’m drowning now

trying to face the facts

struggling w the math, it’s never adding up

life is all i have, what

this ain’t what i imagined wish i was past tense beats

beats living so passive

my income is barely managed im bending lump sums tryna travel and make these dreams happen

scattered thoughts land in madness, the mattress lumpy the glass is, half empty for sure

feel a bit more when the rain pours seasonal depression

derpeciting still innovating otherwise clearer skies on brighter day sometimes its hope other days just feels like delay of my demise

wanna duck my face and hide

I don’t wanna be visible

the cloak is shattered, the notes are splattered the pink matter is flabbergasted at what interventions I conjure

thought I would call on a number to make me feel something

these dreams too vivid i’m lofty

need redeem myself cause i’m lost here

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I’m doubting every motion just ruminating these walls are scathing my own existence

experiences seem, so obscene

*vocals*

when I dream I either forget everything

*vocals*

or be transported inter-dimensional fluency

its kinda fun but also loopy loosing reality is double edged

I spread myself too thin when I said I would exist and overthrow all internal struggles

but what if I’m wrong

what if I’m on

you could be gone

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