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My lids seem to be open But I can't feel a face Or a body beneath my eyes Still my emotions are torn Between repentance, temper, and sorrow Alone in a desert of despair Familiar faces surrounded by nameless ones I'm no part of the events Different life, vacant, counterfeit Like a ghost levitating above the scene Able to see, unable to be seen I'm not part of the events Different life, vacant, counterfeit Erased, I've never been born Unable to make my mistakes As the abyss took me As my doubts bear me down Deleted, misremembered Letters building words Altered, rephrased tale My name does not appear These pages were deleted All that's left is bleak and drear Footprints in the ground Missing pair of feet The road they show, hard as before A sight I can't ignore Erased, not a twist of fate An unbreakable curse Trapped in a loop Everything happens as foretold Cycle of pain Persistent, ongoing I am eliminated My existence obliterated But still I can see Without me, it's still the same All the emotions are torn Between repentance, temper, and sorrow The pitiless desert of despair