Toothache

I'm over sippin', overthinkin' of quittin' I'm over sittin' around in my room in the same position My wife keep tryna tell me, but I never seem to listen The only one tryna help me, this hell's feelin' like a prison Never had a pot to piss in, used to wash the dishes In the kitchen of a café where the boss was always bitchin' Now I'm washing dirty money with rap features for tax reasons A year ago, never had it in my vision Snakes slithering in on Kentucky Blue I know your people that don't mean I fuck with you Cunts'll do anything to see me fucked by the constable Day one's turning on me surprised by what the drugs'll do I don't care though, I keep pouring deuces in my cup Fucked up, I'm feeling as stupid as my mum She used to lock the bedroom while she'd shoot up in her arm People shootin' up our house, we had to move onto a farm My brother in jail for moving too much shard Bitches doing drops to him, so he don't do it hard My dad's scattered from using, I don't know who he is anymore But I still try and keep him in my heart It's hard, I got my own fam, we just had a baby Money coming in, so when he grow up, he don't hate me I been working hard to try to sort shit with my lady When it's going good again, I seem to go a little crazy Back on the Xannies, behind her back, I'm trying to manage Back to the bottle every time that I panic Behind all of this palace, I'm tryna vanish Depression is manic in me, it's probably 'cause I'm an addict I don't know how no one noticed, killing me I know this Fucked up, faded the day I wrote this My teeth decay and decaying from sipping sodas These people all want an album, but I keep losing my focus No one knows what I'm going through, don't know what I'm supposed to do Most of these scars self-inflicted tryna get over you You left me when I needed you, told me it's 'cause I told you to I'm colder now, I haven't been sober since when I spoke to you Benzos in a shopping bag, I sold a few But most of 'em get chucked in my stomach to help me soldier through Always loaded with a pack on me like soldiers do I'm stuck in my room suckin' these beugs, wish I told the truth Depression kickin' in like old times Run the ball up never seem to hit the goal line My homies call up, been telling them to hold tight But I been losing weight, man, they can tell that I ain't all right All night, I been tipping syrup in this Belvedere I'm past the point of saving, I can't see me getting help from here My missus bitchin' at me saying that I need to pull up She the same one used to make me rack shit on the streets That we could sell for gear I'm happy she's doing better but misery loves company Bring the bitches down, it's half the reason that they run from me She used to hold me down, she used to say she was in love with me From sleeping on the streets to eating good and living comfortably We been through too much, she just had a baby I give it two months, the coppers come back try and take me I been tryna change but people in my past, they wanna snake me I can't get away from it even though I'm trying lately Shit is hopeless, poppin' these pills, sipping these potions Brain numb tryna avoid different emotions These kids trippin' thinkin' the shit I spit is the dopest I'm over it, nobody seems to notice I'm broken Over this scene, shit is filled up with jokers I keep my fam close, my enemies be the closest My teeth decay and decaying from sipping sodas These people all want an album, but I keep losing my focus