Nail Biter

I used to lie awake at night and question what my purpose is I never had my fingernails, I've always been a nervous kid Unhappy and I'm sure of it I'm never gonna change I barely scratch the surface when I pace the halls to clear my thoughts away I'm not okay And I'm starting to learn it in the hardest ways I've lost control of everything I ever had a hold of I'm letting go And I'm rid of the notion that I'll make it out It feels so far now Holding on but losing my grip I guess it's something I could learn to live with I'm hoping it resolves itself and I've been waiting patiently I drink myself to sleep because I hate the pills my doctor gave me I am just a mess Submissive to the stress My mind feels like it's on a loop, I panic from the pressure in my head Don't get too close to me I'm about to go I'm about to break We're only seconds away I'm not okay And I'm starting to learn it in the hardest ways I've lost control of everything I ever had a hold of I'm letting go And I'm rid of the notion that I'll make it out It feels so far now Holding on but losing my grip I guess it's something I could learn to live with I gotta keep it together I am losing my way (my way) I gotta try to get better Before I lose what's left of me (what's left of me) I'm not okay And I'm starting to learn it in the hardest ways I've lost control of everything I ever had a hold of I'm letting go And I'm rid of the notion that I'll make it out It feels so far now Holding on but losing my grip I guess it's something I could learn to live with My mind feels like it's on a loop, I panic from the pressure in my head