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If I could forget all of my sins Then maybe I wouldn't hold my breath Until the pain sinks in And even if my head goes numb It's a moment in peace In peace No matter how hard I try (How hard I try) I can't escape these walls Trapped in a loop of feeling fine And waking up wanting to die (All alone I am) Mistakes are all I have They taint my name How can I project my pain My inability to fucking smile How can I project this pain? My inability to fucking smile? Breathe in, don't breathe out I can't believe the pain it brings It's torturing To follow the heart is to cut it out But I died when you left here There's blood in these words Take me and save me And I'm drowning in misery There's suffering My heart is dead My mind says yes What's so pressuring I'm trembling I am nothing without you These lies that they feed you of moving on I don't need your comfort I just want you here I can't wait forever Death has no return No coming back No turning back Death is forever Death has no return Now I know what I have to do No more wasting time Pulling these fake smiles So much time living lies that I'll be fine Please let me in death I'm knocking at your door Breathe in, don't breathe out I can't believe the pain it brings It's torturing To follow the heart is to cut it out But I died when you left here There's blood in these words Take me and save me And I'm drowning in misery There's suffering My heart is dead My mind says yes What's so pressuring I'm trembling Take me Save me From this misery Hope is just a lie Everybody dies Hope is just a lie (That we're forced to believe) Everybody dies I'm next in line