In My Heart

I can feel you in my heart, you in my heart I can feel you in my heart, you in my heart I can see you, I can feel you, I can smell it But just the thought of you could make me fucking jealous I'm not normal when I'm not with you I'm so depressed that I could cut right through this scar tissue That's cause we've been here before That's cause you love me Then you leave me Then you give me withdrawals Why the fuck are you so heartless? You help me at my lowest then you left me in the darkness Trying to deal with all these hardships but I feel like fucking garbage I can feel you in my heart but its just me in this apartment But sometimes you'll come and visit And make me feel like our love is unconditioned Nobody understood us quite enough to fuckin' get it Its hard to come to grips with you and I its something different And you know I got this void to fill inside You always warned me if we ever got too close that I could die But still I'd rather that than feel hopeless every night They all tell me not to talk to you, and focus on my life I'm free tonight so please come over we can talk Once I get a taste of you I don't think that I can stop I can feel you in my heart, you in my heart I can feel you in my heart, you in my heart They don't understand that I'm addicted to your presence You let me down so much by now you'd think I learn my lesson You make me feel upset but I forgive you in a second Cause I don't know what I would ever do without my secret weapon They always tell me I abuse you, which I'll never understand Cause no matter what I always let you get the upper hand I try to be a better man and give you space but I just can't Bitch I'll be there by your side until the point that I collapse I'd rather pick you up than put you down Cause every time I'm feeling down you make me feel like someone else I'm counting every single second til next time you come around Cause your love is like a drug I know its never running out I'm riding shotty no seat-belt in the fast lane All I'm thinkin' bout is how she helps on my bad days Or how you always make my problems seem smaller All my thoughts are all smarter, and my confidence stronger Then I forget about this rap career shit, fuckin' issue When I'm with you I just cannot feel shit, real shit I go numb like there's nothing to deal with, it's pure bliss Til you leave me alone and I feel sick I can feel you in my heart, you in my heart I can feel you in my heart, you in my heart Lately I've been mentally confused, you used to get me in the mood then my obsession for you grew But lately it's like I can't even tell if it's still you, it feels different And I swear there's nothing left for me to do Was I really in love with you? Or the idea of it Cause now when you get me high I notice I still plummet Then I feel sluggish It hurts to think that I still love you and I'd kill for you But I don't think that you're so loyal I never would've thought that this could happen It caused a chain reaction of emotion mixed with sadness Which is wack cause life without you I don't think that I could manage Its been damage, now I wonder if I'll even hit you back and I just panic Back then I'd try to fix it with a bandage Been attached for so long I got the weirdest disadvantage This is tragic I know I never did you any wrong But the truth is I've been writing about liquor all along Back then I thought that I could really tell that you were modest You were always there for me and it felt like you were honest But your dwelling on my conscience, never helping with my problems Fuck a message in a bottle this a message to my bottle I can feel you in my heart, you in my heart I can feel you in my heart, you in my heart