If I Was Gone

Every night the light fades my happiness goes with it When your heartbroken you're scared and you can't stitch it There's something missing in me a space that I can't feel in There's gotta be an answer out there but what is it I'm second guessing everything I feel inside within I'm insecure I'm saying I'm not comfortable in my skin I never chose to be me or love in this life on sin Some day better days are ahead but I'm not convinced I lost everything I had there's nothing left to obtain I'm followed by grey clouds, I'm over this shit I'm drained Drowning in emotions drenched in December rain I'll find a way to numb the pain No vocain Pathetic Poe-Poetic I'm irrelevant to most All I need's an extension then I'll be okay to go Give me everything you've got I don't care if I overdose Cause I'll be a lost cost until I'm decomposed I never chose to be me or love in this life on sin lost everything Better days are never ahead but they say they are I can't even think what is going on What do I do? What would people think if I was gone? What will their reaction be? What, how, and where will I be? Where can I find my future? The past is irrelevant to now