Misunderstood

My dad doing life in a max prison My mom overdosed and died from addiction My brother lost his life in car collision Seeing my grandma in that grave got me in my feelings Most the people that I love are no longer living So forgive me if you feel like I been acting distant Its some friends I ain't spoke to in a minute Just know its love but my anxiety be fucking tripping I wanna chill but my mind make me think I'm ill And I'll never tell a soul about the pain I feel I used to prescription pills just to sit still Aderal had me skipping all kind of meals Trying to stay focused but I cant think straight All of this lack of sleep got me losing weight Weed got me paranoid I don't feel safe Trust issues got me thinking everybody fake They talk behind my back but quiet in my face My family come around and don't know what to say Feel like the love in my heart turning into hate Its like I'm trapped in my brain and I can't escape Thought the million views would make me feel good Made it out the hood and moved to Hollywood Thought my blood would be proud I made it out the mud But all it did was make me feel misunderstood Misunderstood Misunderstood Why my family make me feel misunderstood misunderstood Why my friends make me feel misunderstood misunderstood Why this world make me feel misunderstood misunderstood I feel misunderstood