Rainbows

I was still a baby, maybe three and a half When you went away to prison for indecency acts So disturbing, I don't even wanna speak it in raps I don't wanna bring it up when it's so deep in the past Twenty years later, now you seeking to have A relationship with me like I'ma see you as dad Bitch, please, you and your ego are wack Y'all some pieces of trash But I do believe forgiveness has the key to un-crack Some pieces of me that I left deep in the past Inner child's screaming, don't be leaving me back You need to repatch, this so I can freely relax And deeply detach from seeds of the past So I'ma give you a chance, I'm emailing you back Just be honest with me and don't be wearing a mask Cause I ain't dealing with that I just gotta let that pain go Tears drop down my face, woah I just gotta let that rain flow I just gotta let that pain show I just gotta let that rain flow How you gon' see that rainbow How you gon' see that rainbow I just wanna see that rainbow If I let you in it's at an inch at a time I'ma listen to your story, then you listen to mine I got a whole lot of reasons I could dip and decide To just go switch up the vibe You so sick in the mind and these some ignorant crimes I got a kick to the side to bring forgiveness to life But I'ma take the high route, I'ma hear your side out Tell me who you are before I find out Well, I'm so happy that you finally talking to me You see, I dreamed about this day since my daughter was three And as I'm writing you this email, I keep stopping to breathe I got these tears in my eyes, but they sobs of relief Cause I'm so honored to be Back up any life that's the father in me I do be sorry, you see, but it's just not what it seems I'm an innocent man, I built a business and plan And I ain't never hit no woman, I got innocent hands Yeah, she the menace, and I really hope that you understand I've been falsely accused, I'm not no cause of abuse I'm not the monster assumed, look kid, I'm promising you I'm an honorable dude, I got a whole lot of charges that aren't partially true I'm sending you this email with my conscience on mute Praying that you never get to find out the truth Cause fuck, I'm blocking it too I just gotta let that pain go Tears drop down my face, woah I just gotta let that rain flow I just gotta let that pain show I just gotta let that rain flow How you gon' see that rainbow How you gon' see that rainbow I just wanna see that rainbow Your choices bad enough on their own But now you double the load by bringing bluffing along You so fucked up in the dome, well now you suffer alone I gave your ass a shot, but you stubborn and stone Now get the fuck out my zone Yeah, I'm empathetic and kind, but this affected the vibe Like if you woulda just explained what led up to the crimes And why your head wasn't fine, I'd put resentment aside But now instead you decide to use your leverage to lie I see you dead in the eyes I don't see a father, I see the devil disguised All that shit you did was super painful and cruel But I learned basically too, just be the opposite of you And I'll be making it through, so I stay grateful and true And I stay patient in tune so my relationships bloom You the worst version of you, so ashamed of the truth I'm the best version of me, this a thank you to you I just gotta let that pain go Tears drop down my face, woah I just gotta let that rain flow I just gotta let that pain show I just gotta let that rain flow How you gon' see that rainbow How you gon' see that rainbow I just wanna see that rainbow