I Don't Even Like Granola Bars That Much

It's like there's too many days and too few hours It's like i'm screaming and crying but it all stays silent It's like I'm hanging off of a cliff stagnant And it's been years My hands are sweating Iim losing my grip I slip i fall but it's better to hit the ground Because at least now it feels different At least now I'm not hanging I reach but I can't find exactly where to go next I've blown my phones storage Applying to almost every job The only calls back are scams and green grass But it's spray painted on It's interesting to say the least Sometimes I feel like it's worth it Sometimes I feel nothing at all Sometimes something's felt And I can't discern when it'll go I hobble around day to day hoping to get better I'll do my stretches I'll do the things they tell me to do But the reasons i do them are far and few My pockets are empty Two of my three reasons are tired My heart it feels hopeful While my soul wants to retire The bags under my eyes are so over weight American airlines would charge An extra two hundred and fifty and change I reach in my pockets the last bit i have left To go somewhere stupid I just don't quite know i just can't quite tell I want to be better i want to fit the bill But i'm not enough i never will be I keep trying to sing i keep ending up screaming I'm sorry for these songs I hope somebody finds them and it helps I hope somebody can know they aren't the only one to hurt They aren't the only one that's cried Screaming bawling into their pillow at night So hard you can feel your heartbeat in between your ears So distraught you're debating taking those pills So distraught you mightve taken them But you woke up in the morning alive You went to work and from then on you've tried You aren't the only one who's felt nothing I'm sorry if this hits you somewhere deep inside I'm sorry if you're anything like me I'm sorry I'm trying It gets better Please keep trying