Trying Not To

I've been trying hard to go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna give me a reason

I've been trying not to go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna give me a reason

I've been trying not to go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna give me a reason

I've been trying not to

Ayy, nah, see I don't drink it, I don't live it

Yeah, you know I'm talking high life

Ayy, been skating by, going down, dropping in on a half pipe

Man, mind at midnight, hella dark, running to the streetlights

Huh, see I've been trying really hard not to dive into the deep end

Stop the pain and stop my breathing, dealing with a lot of shit

Even as a kid, I got reason after reason

And they weighing heavy on me, getting crazy hard to cope

And I think I should go

Far from being funny, but my life is a joke

Sink or swim, I know I'm too dense to float

Looking at me, couldn't tell, yeah, you probably wouldn't know

But I've been trying not to

I've been trying hard to go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna give me a reason

I've been trying not to go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna give me a reason

I've been trying not to go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna give me a reason

I've been trying not to

Goddamn is god there

Don't want to be here, life's shit, to be fair

My life ain't so easy, y'all don't really need me

Too late to care now, too worn too beat down

Yeah, talk to me, don't want to

Please step back, I've warned you, must I re-inform you

Inside, I've gone crazy, outside, shit, don't phase me

Hell, how could you blame me

I've been trying hard to go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna give me a reason

I've been trying not to go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna give me a reason

I've been trying not to go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna give me a reason

I've been trying not to