Find Myself Again

I've been holding on to everything I know for way too long Found a comfortable position where I feel like I belong Built a wall so no one sees the things I could be doing wrong Now every mirror that I cross is showing me somebody else The one who got it all looks different Than the one who needs some help It's getting kinda hot in here, in this self created hell I need to change my ways before it's too late I don't have time to catch my breath I need a way out of this mess I'm looking for clues on who I am Need to find myself again Is there a way I can escape? I'm tired of this endless escapade Before I forget just who I am Need to find myself again I see my friends grow every season like the plants I used to own And all the books that I've been reading They are mostly just for show Everyone I should've read is catching dust on shelves at home And in the midst of all the chaos, I keep smiling all the time But I don't think my mom believes me when I say: "I'm doing fine" And the truth is, I've been losing, I've been losing every night I need to change my ways before it's too late I don't have time to catch my breath I need a way out of this mess I'm looking for clues on who I am Need to find myself again Is there a way I can escape? I'm tired of this endless escapade Before I forget just who I am Need to find myself again Tell me that I'm worth it Tell me how to love myself I'm building up the courage But I could use a little help Tell me that I'm worth it Tell me how to love myself Oh, I could use a little help I don't have time to catch my breath I need a way out of this mess I'm looking for clues on who I am Is there a way I can escape? I'm tired of this endless escapade Before I forget just who I am Need to find myself again