Drink on My Own

I drink on my own

When I'm afraid and alone

Watch the same show for hours

Just to ease my mind

They say you need to dive in

Can't hide in superstition

You need to say things out loud

And embrace them

But I found that I'm still the same

All these therapists aim

To find that trauma inside

That needs releasing

I'm waiting for love to recover my heart

But I should know better by now

I'm pushing my luck wait for signs from above

To free me from these dreadful thoughts

Let go of my hand

I don't think I'll ever can

Be the girl that you asked

To be your wife

I'll soldier on

Till a new morning comes

And it all went up in smoke again

But I can't control the fire

I'm waiting for love to recover my heart

But I should know better by now

I'm pushing my luck wait for signs from above

To free me from these dreadful thoughts

I'm falling apart, while there's nothing really missing

It's my head that hurts the most

I guess it's too hard to let go of these thoughts

And I can't go back to who I was

I tend to get drunk

When I'm out, but don't belong

And while I'm growing older

I feel like moving backwards