I feel like, I ain’t living in real life

They want me to morph see us to clever to not take the red that reveals life

Streets is bloody from partisan filled lies

I feel eyes on me for for reflecting the hue of the deep blue oceans of oceans of grace that make it possible to look in his face

Uh, yea

I felt this pressure before,

Like a show telling me select a door

Except I was 11 and the decision was either my dad or my mom

The data’s alarming

And it ain’t thems(Dems) that disarm me

It’s the echo chamber that herald’s danger telling me take the cause of their army

Hardly can I hear myself

Heart beat feels like fear itself

Has gripped my mind to divide the divine from my struggle to revive what my flesh likes to run to

I need some silence

My conscience is violent

This is no little violin

This is my sin taking time from who I should abide in

But I keep on vibin’

I keep on smiling

I love my daughter but sometimes she wildin’

Wife is annoyed because I don’t put time in

Yet I watch porn in time smaller than eyelids

Out on an island screaming for help

Like I wasn’t jet-skiing to be hear myself

I’m leading support groups for freedom from hell

Struggling to experience freedom myself

I just feel like I'm in trouble

Trouble

Circumstances feel unknown

That makes me not want to go

Into places where there's trouble

Trouble

I really feel like I'm alone

I just want that feeling gone

I just feel like I'm in trouble

Trouble

(Repeat)

Riddle me this why care for opinions that don’t exist

A medicating compulsive addict

Come close to having what I want but what I post I’m trapped in

Tryna to reimagine what I feel (uh)

Fantasies question what is real (uh)

Slide in the DM’s, get the kill (uh)

Never mind that you got your girls

Probably be waste deep if I ain’t snitch on myself

(But I love bad b******* that’s my f****** problem)

Focused on what I built dissolving

Than living my life without him

Then out comes this

Self absorbed

Helpless bored

Shell of all

Things human

With no felt resolve

Denying my own words

Cause I Held record

And out came the message “Just Be”

I can point all I want

Search for a cause With all my heart

Blame the world for the trouble I felt was the start

But when I look in the mirror it’s

Just me

I just feel like I'm in trouble

Trouble

Circumstances feel unknown

That makes me not want to go

Into places where there's trouble

Trouble

I really feel like I'm alone

I just want that feeling gone

I just feel like I'm in trouble

Trouble

(Repeat)

So now I see

That the problem isn’t relapse

Any compulsion to stop is just feedback

This searing pain that resounds

Tryna drown out the sound I don’t

Need to prove anything

Relax

And just Be

I’m in Him

He’s in me

Forgiven

Free

Free

Free

Free