Embrace

(Embrace,Embrace,Embrace,Embrace)

A bullet was shot into the sky on a rainy Tuesday night in march

It was the year of the passing of haley's comet

Which nobody was able to see because of weather conditions

Soon the bullet felt cold and lonely in space

Yearning for the resistance and warmth of the human body

So it slowed down its speed, returned to earth

And began its journey

The bullet

The bullet first found me at the age of three in a northern bulgarian town

I was smelling a pansy flower as it approached me

The bullet asked the question is this now?

But nobody replied

The bullet understood that this was just a memory and so it moved on

Two years later it retrieved me in a village in south german

My mother was adjusting a satellite dish

Pointing its receiver towards the sky

And there on the screen, out of a blue digital ocean

We saw a message from heaven - it was MTV

The bullet left us sitting there in awe,

Finding me and my father again one year later

Nicking carparts from a junkyard down in the river valley

It was hot summer, wild strawberries season

And just a few years later the bullet wandered through the tiny medival Alleys of Rottweil, passing by the kebab snack bar where we used to Line up during lunchbrake, heads turning back to see Miriam passing by,

I was 15, she was 17 - but her boyfriend was 20

Me, mother and the bullet in the auditorium of small provincial theater

There´s my father standing on a stage proclaiming his text in a

Piece called Andorra.

It'll be the first and last time seeing him on a stage

That night the dream that had started on a drama school in Bulgaria Ended in front of a dull crowd in a foreign land

Was it bad luck, or bad character - who knows- who cares

Pictures of dead people in Mogadischu

Pictures of dead people in Sarajevo

Pictures of dead people in Grozny, Chechnya

  

The bullet heard me listening to Things fall apart by the Roots over And over again.

Loving the way the instrumental faded out on every nine bars in Step into the realm

And it drank the best german bear in a small brewery down by the riverside. It sat beside me the cooling grass, dizzy, asking again

Is this now ? - no answer

I'm going - hey boy, hey girl, superstar dj - Listing to Surrender by the Chemical brothers

Beginning of september, returning from Bulgaria with the best tomatos in the world, cans of white cheese, kashkaval,rakia, and wine

And just one week later - eating that one last big tomato from home Missing home

The bullet stood in the crowd while i performed with a Soulcover-band in a dungeon in Koblenz called the Circus maximus - the bullet wasn't much impressed

It saw me perform my first songs on local tv stations around Mannheim

But my heart wasn't really there yet

Breaking my fingers with dumbbells, not being able to play guitar for two months. So thats why they call them dumbbells, huh?

Walking down the corridor of my parents apartment after they'd split They had removed all the pictures on the walls, the paint behind the pictures looked brighter than the rest of the wall.

It looked eerie, comical

 

The bullet followed me along my first long term relationship

Eventually packing my stuff after four years and moving out

Am i dreaming? Where has the love gone? the young bird asked the dying rose

Performing with my former band on a music festival in New York in front of ten people

Later giving an interview in a park, overusing the term melancholy in order to describe our music.

The bullet watched beside my bed at some long nights

Seeing me wide awake and frighten by a unknown profound loneliness

Me, building a greenhouse out of old windows

Me, breaking hearts, feeling guilty

Me buying a 91e-class mercedes, driving it to the mechanics with a trailer, so proud and so happy

Ten grands later, cruising with it, listing to LCD Soundsystem and Cody Chesnutt

A bullet, slow bullet. Sticking with me all the time, never leaving my side

The bullet asks me is this now ?

And i say yes this is now

I have a question dear bullet, since you are a slow bullet

How did you plan to hit me ? You know i have the option to move..

Well i guess that´s the interesting point the bullet responds

It used to be an option. Now that i found you, it´s not an option anymore. If you don't move - i´ll get ya !

  

(Embrace,Embrace,Embrace,Embrace .)