Heaves

I had to look around but I figured it out Am I feeling regret or am I lying again? I don't need explanations You didn't need to call me I appreciate the gesture I wish I could have told you how it felt But I don't feel much these days And when I do it's all confused And you don't need that shit So I'll medicate as the noise escalates And as my house collapses to the ground The earth starts to shake And then my mind becomes a canvas As the ink spills on the ground Because it's the worst thing that could happen And it's happening right now Between the cops And the creeps And the party And the heaves And the anxious piercing echo in our heads That says we're fucked And now I know more about myself Than I ever wanted to know So I'll medicate as the noise escalates And as my house collapses to the ground The earth rocks my fevered brain I'll make sure you never find me