If I Ever Loved You

Baby, I was not the one I guess you know that now But I kept you real distracted for a while I look back and nothing much Ever comes to mind Sometimes I can picture half a smile And we were thick as thieves Hung on each others sleeves Kissing all the time But if I ever loved you Shouldn't I be crying? Shouldn't I be cracking up And drinking all the time? Yeah, if I ever loved you How come I feel alright? How come the nights are so easy And the mornings look so bright? I try to figure what has gone I seem to look the same Maybe there's a tightness around my eyes Sometimes the evening comes I think I miss someone And then I realize That if I ever loved you Shouldn't I be crying? Shouldn't I be cracking up And drinking all the time? Yeah, if I ever loved you How come I feel alright? How come the nights are so easy And the mornings look so bright? And love, it can make your world Bring you alive but I wasn't dead before So baby, you ain't hard to survive Maybe I was not the one But I had to try And in the end there's no such thing As wasted time I was the interim Between nothingness and him So how is that a crime? But if I ever loved you Shouldn't I be crying? Shouldn't I be cracking up And drinking all the time? Yeah, if I ever loved you How come I feel alright? How come the nights are so easy And the mornings looks so bright?