Torn Between

Pulled both ways, but still suspended The worst of each, reduced and blended Still suspended, suspended I thought I was stuck between two worlds Because I was not willing to let go Recklessly pulled both ways But somehow still suspended The worst of each, reduced and blended But as life unfolded, I realized The momentum to drift from side to side Came from within, came from inside I feel torn between two hearts dying, but I'll trade them in for one Broken and exposed, collapsing, so why would I hold on? One heart turned black, the other blue and bruised Arms breaking, arms breaking from the dreams Dreams shattered, the dreams that I can't reach There has to be, there has to be a choice I have not seen I feel torn between two hearts dying, but I'll trade them in for one Broken and exposed, collapsing, so why would I hold on? I feel torn between two hearts dying, but I'll trade them in for one One darkened over time burning away the shame Erasing hidden insights I did not want to be seen The other was beaten from being exposed So it hurt less to never hold it close I feel torn between two hearts dying, but I'll trade them in for one Broken and exposed, collapsing, so why would I hold on? I feel torn between two hearts dying, but I'll trade them in for one So why would I hold on? I'll trade them in for one Neither heart had power to fill my veins Or be the source of who I want to be Pulled both ways, but still suspended