Brutal Happiness (Re-Recorded)

Early in the morning I woke up I hate my life but nobody knows With that grin I protect myself It's like a shield against invaders With that smile I enter every day Of my fucking life Yo Smiling face in my dreams Fuck it Smiling face in my dreams Fuck it If I smile every day Nobody sees that something is wrong Feelings about it are too complex Won't have discussions about them But the pressure is really high To have a change in my life Smiling face in my dreams Fuck it Smiling face in my dreams Fuck it I have tried to find some rest In this hopeless difficult times But the more I think about it The more I think there is no hope The only thing that keeps me alive Is to think back when I was young If I could turn back In my childhood Everything is so easy to do If I could turn back In my childhood Everything is so easy to do The thought makes me sick I will never turn back In my childhood Like a punch in my neck In my dreams not getting back The iron of my knife leads my hand Brutal happiness is going to an end Like a punch in my neck In my dreams not getting back The iron of my knife leads my hand Brutal happiness is going to an end Like a punch in my fucking neck In my fucking dreams not never getting back The iron of my knife leads my fucking hand Brutal happiness is going to an fucking end