Alien

Feeling like I gotta go now Time is passing me I need to slow down If there's one thing I know I'm supposed to be different And I know that I'm distant I don't understand it I'm usually drifting into an abusive existence Why I got into this Always been driven it's all that I know and the reason I'm gifted with p¬ainting these pictures they claim as magnificent Why can't I see it I feel like I'm missing it Search for the infinite What the fuck does that mean Heaven or hell, fade into nothing, or are we just stuck in a world in between We just wait for our time to be called to the test Reflect til' the day that we're laid down to rest Tell me why do we have to lose someone we love just to find out that we were too scared to connect Sometimes I'm feeling like an alien Most days I really just can't fit in And I always been dealing with abandonment Truth is I don't know if I can handle this With anxiety the only way to manage it Is meditating with a couple dozen candles lit Behind stage I can feel my body panicking Staring blank out at the crowd like a mannequin Would you miss me And if I was to leave would you give me a standing ovation And would you be proud of the music I made and the thousands of lives that I'm saving And will I go down as a person who somehow impacted a whole generation I wish that I knew I guess I'll just patiently wait til' the day that I'm taken I think I'm an alien Feeling like I gotta go now, go now Time is passing me I need to slow down, slow down And I think I might of come from outer space I'm different than the people in this place Maybe I'm an alien I feel just like an alien Sometimes I'm feeling like an alien Do you think I'm an alien Maybe I'm an alien Sometimes I'm feeling like an alien Moving forward then before I know it I'm back in my room feeling paranoia Thinking back wondering if I was ever different Always letting people in that were barely loyal Put my walls down, then I get myself in a bind Left in the dust, tell me am I crossing your mind I wonder if they listen every time that I rhyme Or if my name just faded through the waves of time I say I'm fine, but I don't even know what that means The grass on the other side is not what it seems They're manipulating you with all their internet schemes Just to convince you to buy fancier things Fell victim to the lust, didn't know how to flee And the Illuminati is probably as real as we think Their making money off of people getting sick in their sleep I can no longer pretend I'ma finally speak I'm digging deeper in the industry every persons' a diva They wanna get something from me and cut me down as a leader I prefer to be alone, but I still want someone to be there Cause half of my team is missing they left me in this arena Like damn Fans showing me more respect than my friends do I been losing a little more than I planned to This is the life that I've chosen now With an army following gotta hold it down Would you miss me And if I was to leave would you give me a standing ovation And would you be proud of the music I made and the thousands of lives that I'm saving And will I go down as a person who somehow impacted a whole generation I wish that I knew I guess I'll just patiently wait til' the day that I'm taken I think I'm an alien Feeling like I gotta go now, go now Time is passing me I need to slow down, slow down And I think I might of come from outer space I'm different than the people in this place Maybe I'm an alien I feel just like an alien Sometimes I'm feeling like an alien Do you think I'm an alien Maybe I'm an alien I'm feeling like an alien Maybe I'm an alien I feel just like an alien Do you think I'm an alien Maybe I'm an alien Sometimes I'm feeling like an alien