Forever Alone (feat. Evil Ebenezer)

I've been trynna drown out all these voices But lately they don't got nowhere to go I guess I'm a product of bad choices But lately I don't wanna let the show I was gone for a minute but I'm back now Took a blunt to the face then I pass out Imma keep it lowkey in the background Quick flex, cut a check then I cash out I'm hearin' voices, these voices won't ever shut up I can't ignore em, I'm pourin shots till the sun up I thought I told you I've mostly been just a - Don't let no snakes in my circle, I'd never trust em Workin' hard on my self improvement Swear to God imma {?} the blueprint I told em all I'm your next to do list, I've been on the winning team and all the rest look stupid Sometimes I get down on myself cause I work too hard to fuck with anybody else Cause this rap shit is a full time job and I work round the clock, I ain't took nights off I'm the bad guy, notice how the good guys lost? Words mix through the verse, it's the hooks don't stop Did dirt since birth when I pushed too hard to let any of you motherfuckers take my spot It's Merc I been trynna drown out all these voices But lately they don't got nowhere to go I guess I'm the product of bad choices But lately I don't want all that to show I'm just trynna live in the moment Somedays life can spin outta control It feels like I'm drowning in the ocean Guess I'll aways be forever alone Truth is, I got a slight disorder Really trnna get my life in order Gotta do it for my wife and daughter I keep working at night, I'm a loner Real talk, I been prayin lots Stuck in my head these crazy thoughts Trynna figure out when the pain will stop Couldn't give a fuck if they hate or not Hard to deal with the phoney friends No idea where this road will end Mind is so intense I drink and I smoke cause I codepend Don't tell me how I gotta gauge success Don't you know life's a game of chess, y'all a waste of breath till they fake your death Watch, all the stress might break yo neck Days get harder, nights get darker, still gotta conquer and fight problems I'm digging deep, man I gotta be honest, I'm feelin exhausted, had it lost it Me and Merc we came up together We put in work, now they fuckin fed up We run this shit, yeah there ain't no better This road is long, it don't last forever I know I made some bad calls lately But I won't let the pressure break me Talkin' to myself like I'm crazy No matter where I'm goin, I'm forever alone I've been trynna drown out all these voices But lately they don't got nowhere to go I guess I'm a product of bad choices But lately I don't want all that to show I'm just trynna live in the moment But some days life can spin outta control It feels like I'm drowning in the ocean I guess I'll always be forever alone Don't you know, don't you know? Don't you know, don't you know? Don't you know, don't you know? Don't you know? I'm forever alone I'm forever alone I'm forever alone I'm forever alone I'm forever alone