From Soot

There is nothing left for me

The body filled with grief

I wish I could start again

To feel something else than shame

Just close my eyes, just close my eyes

Secluded from the pain

It left me without control

Without control

I never wanted to burn my home

Awoken by the flames

They will swallow me whole

I have written that letter too many fucking times

It's all just empty lies

It's all, it's all just in my mind

Tore myself apart

Just let it die, let it die

It won't feel the same without letting go

This can't be what I am

I was too blind to see it

Another life lost to this hell

I never wanted to be the one in the end

Pacing in the cube of regret

How could it come to this?

Every day is just the same

Just waiting for the end

Waiting for the end

Solitary, confined

I am defined

I'm broken enough to lose my skin

Fallen into a depression

At the start of my regression

Just like I did in my dream

Screaming at the light as it blocked my sight

Why would I fight it, why would I fight

It won't feel the same without letting go

This can't be what I am

I was too blind to see it

Another life lost to this hell

I never wanted to be the one in the end

I will rise from these ashes

This rebirth is not for me

Don't ever feel any shame

You'll always have someone to blame

I never wanted to feel at home

At best I just want to rest

I will remember the day

When it all burned away

A heart of soot will never rot

A heart of soot will never rot