Feb 8th 2019

A little ballad of how someone went from a classmate kwis'Zulu To being the love of Luyanda's life It was her first day, she didn't speak She was standin' in front of the class lookin' for a seat On my first gaze I didn't seem Too impressed or have interest but she sat close and at first I let it slide She was still new so I didn't care I was still blue from ear to ear From previous experience of heartbreak I was still in my dark days But - the followin' day I gazed again and it felt different I sat - near the window and I'd turn - south east and stare at her 'Cause I had interest But - I didn't rush 'cause I didn't want to mess it up So I first chose to investigate where she chill durin' break Who she with while she wait For her transport and where she take her transport 'Cause that last point is important I'd learn and fill my docket And plot my move in the process Each day I'd get closer I took four days and I was fully set On Feb 8th I made my move No regrets I said my truth With patience while in Jacobs with no time to lose She put out her cigarette to listen to the words I said And as we spoke I was confident she would say yes I closed the space between us and she was like "Woah, wait, stand back, why you so close?" Jokingly I told her that I'm no joke It went well I got her tens and soon after she went home That same night I dropped a text and we spoke and slowly But surely we began to build That was the case for the entirety of that weekend On Feb 11 we spoke again No time to waste, I'm on the road again Soon after she said yes, I grabbed a hug and I felt the love in the same place Where we first spoke and two days I made change Days change 'cause we're both now in the same lane Days pass we're goin' great A week later it was a different case There was a new guy in the picture But I kept my cool and cause a scene I'm no kettle I don't blow steam Soon after he disappeared But a poltergeist leaves a mark And overnight she breached her card But no delight to leave her dawg I'm a lovin' guy so I let it go And that was me signing a death wish I love blind so I'm defenseless 'Cause on April 30 she left me I felt unworthy and messy Heartbreak now plagued me I was so haunted and so heartless that it breaks me Then "lucky" me it got worse She told me that she's pregnant And even though it's not mine I fell deeper into my depression 'Cause even though she broke me I didn't like seein' her sad And deep down I'd do anything to get her back Or prevent us from being less attached She'd tell me that she miss me But the circumstances prevented her from being with me And due to that I failed to get over her So for seven months it haunted me But on November 26 I couldn't keep my feelings in so I told her how I truly feel Without holdin' back I truly real And thankfully she felt the same But them old ways we had to change But us - back together didn't mean it was always bliss There were days where I felt trapped in a ditch With a lack of assist from my own girl And I felt as if she was still trapped in her old world I didn't enjoy my birthday 'cause I was too busy cryin' over her But soon after I pulled myself up And by Jan I was back up And somehow I became distant In Feb of 2020 I did my thing without talkin' to her She felt I was being heartless to her When I made a promise to her That was a big problem to her A huge problem for her On the 22nd of Feb 2020 after Matric extra lessons on Saturday we had a talk We had a heart to heart, a moment She now had the chance to be open We reconciled and bonded Our foundation could harden To somethin' true not a possum When the sun set my love for her grew really strong But I wasn't scared I was actually glad That my deep, true feelings were no longer trapped And it felt good to know I had her back Now I had her back so she wouldn't be scared Or try to love me less Before Covid we had a moment so important should be noted We shared our first kiss Now lookin' back on what happened it was worth it March 17, a day in history A movie scene you'd see in Disney In simpler words it was pretty Then school closed, Covid and then Lockdown April and May were hostile When we returned she wasn't back for a few days But I didn't worry 'cause we do change On June 11 she came back I was glad to have my lad' back She had given birth and now different She would speak but not listen It was clear that since we fell in love in school I was subject to her abuse She became shady but not slim Asanda told me that the game I'm playin' I would not win From there forward there was beef between her and Ghost Between her and friends, I was trapped between both The Pens Down Party just made it worse December 11 made it worse From there to now it's been a horror scene A very bad dream Feb 8th 2019 Soul I reminisce, remember this, dark days are a detriment I'm sorry for being a pessimist Back in school people had bad measurements That made me weak and sensitive But we'll get off the precipice