I'm Slowly Killing Myself

Yeah, yeah Got the devil on my shoulder He been telling me to shoot back Catch a couple bodies And then go and get my loot back Plotting my revenge But I don't really wanna do that They say you should focus on the bag, yeah But what's the point in getting rich if I still wanna die? Finally, built a life, but I'm still feeling lifeless I've been holding on, sometimes wonder why? They say I'm not alone, but I still feel the silence Every rapper just promotes consumption Yeah, I see the system, wanna disrupt the function If you ain't honest, like when they view you is less than Sick of chasing fame, it only gave me more depression It's so lame, these artists desperate for attention So they selling out like they forgot the vision I been slow and steady, not concerned about a lift-off I can never make a track solely for a TikTok Finally back, I'm sane, finally got my grip back Got a red dot, new attach make 'em zigzag All I do is work man, I don't got time to kick back All you sitting hating and miserable you won't admit that (yeah) Going suicidal again, I want a way out Feeling like the end is coming up like any day now Looking at Kobe, wonder if I'll go the same route I don't think I'll make it out I'm slowly killing myself Can anybody help me 'fore I crash and burn? Lessons that I never learned I'm slowly killing myself I'm calling, can anybody help me? Save me 'fore I crash and burn Lessons that I never learned I'd rather die, I don't wanna be a burden Burn it down, throw it all in the furnace Death hope 'cause I'm always hurting I could buy anything and still feel worthless