Heather

2017 The first time you messaged me First fan I ever had Put me on when you were sad Said you hated growing up You were sure that I'd blow up Shared my songs with all your friends I could barely pay the rent Singin' to an empty room But I knew what I meant to you You got the XX's tattooed Reminding me I have you Never got to thank you I wouldn't be here without you, without you Without you believing And now that I'm here without you, without you The words have no meaning No promise was spoken You're gone and I'm broken Now, I'm barely holding on, holding on I wouldn't be here without you Why am I here without you? 2021 Told me that you've come undone Lost your job, and lost your dad Your biggest fan is all you had X's covered up with scars on your arm From self-harm Messaged me, I don't reply I wish I knew it was goodbye Singin' to a crowded room Saved a seat, I looked for you I made it to your hometown Guess I'm on my own now I wish I got to save you I wouldn't be here without you, without you Without you believing And now that I'm here without you, without you The words have no meaning No promise was spoken You're gone and I'm broken Now, I'm barely holding on, holding on I wouldn't be here without you Why am I here without you? (I wouldn't be here without you, without you) (I wouldn't be here without you) This is dedicated If you put me on your playlist If you showed up to the stages If I never get to say this I'm proud of you For all the shit that's drowning you And all the noise surrounding you Hope you find what I found in you And I hope that you grow old with me And we turn up 'til we're 70 Play me at your wedding and you never leave If you ever need anything And I don't pick up Well, you still got a friend in me Wish I said all that to Heather Now I just hope she rests in peace