Dissipate

I never asked for this burden I never asked for this cross that I bear on my back But like an ulcer scratching against my tongue I can't leave it alone So you can find me down at the bottom With a stomach full of stones I can't outrun my fate, it follows like a shadow I put all of my faith in a saint without a halo But I won't die pretending I'm not intending to see this through Until I too become invisible to you So pull me under, be sure to leave no trace Never wonder, I see it on your face What do I have to do to demonstrate (have to do to demonstrate) The way it makes me feel and think? I feel like I could fucking suffocate (I could suffocate) And you would barely blink I could suffocate and you would barely blink So I'll sink, searching for an answer With a stomach full of stones These thoughts are like a cancer Growing in my bones I've made this hell my home Never again, sever the sin from within my soul The darker half that makes me whole I was only dreaming I was never here I was only dreaming Of how I'll disappear I can't outrun my fate, it follows like a shadow I put all of my faith in a saint without a halo But I won't die pretending I'm not intending to see this through Until I too become invisible to you (I was only dreaming) Invisible to you (I was never here) But I won't die pretending I'm not intending to see this through Until I too become invisible to you (become invisible to you) I long to leave Leave the past behind And tear out the thorn that's in my side Tear out Tear out the thorn Tear out Tear out the thorn that's in my side