Toxic Inspiration

Adelso on this You one of the reasons why I strive to be better Thinking if I was better then maybe we'd be together But I know that's false I've been out here looking for the love that we lost Hoping one day I might find it once I fix all of my flaws, baby But that's now how the story ends And yeah, I know it, but I still like to pretend That you my lover and my friend And after we done working on ourselves You cross my path and we gon' fall in love again But isn't that what we all say Just so we can soften up the heartbreak Sad to say I learned that shit the hard way Real question is Did you really mean all of that shit Or am I waiting on a date that don't exist? Please let me know Did you only tell me that we could Just to hide the fact you leaving me for good? 'Cause if so that's fine I'll just keep on working on myself To be as happy as I was when you were mine 'Cause I've been tryna keep my head up, memories don't make it better Struggling to keep it all together Hoping that you acknowledging my effort, na, na, na, na 'Cause I've been so patient Tryna save you when I'm the one who need the saving You can still find me right here, I'll be waiting I just hope you know that you my toxic inspiration Know that you ain't coming back but I'll be waiting anyway What's inside my heart for you is way more than these words can say Way more than these songs Tryna right my wrongs Feelings that I got for you too strong I can't leave you lone This pain just ain't gon' stop till you come home And this ain't how it's supposed to be And if it is then that ain't good enough for me 'Cause in my heart I still believe that you and me are still meant to be So, I'ma grow into the person that you need Tell you come home, home, home I've been all alone, 'lone, 'lone, 'lone I find it crazy it's been working You not by my side, but still make me a better person If it ain't meant to be then I'ma end up all alone But that'll be alright aslong you notice that I've grown 'Cause I've been tryna keep my head up, memories don't make it better Struggling to keep it all together Hoping that you acknowledging my effort, na, na, na, na 'Cause I've been so patient Tryna save you when I'm the one who need the saving You can still find me right here, I'll be waiting I just hope you know that you my toxic inspiration, uhmm