Road

The pavement bathed in the winter's light Betrays an unobstructed line of sight I've been searching all my life For a little glimpse of light Weight behind the eyes Wearied deep inside I drag on through the night And feel like I'm finally where i should be Endless surroundings circling me Lost in the hopeful anxiety Maybe this all will be worth something I want to see how I've been deprived It took my whole life to finally feel alive Learn to survivе off the uncertainty Is this real? Is this rеally happening? I never sought everything The future draped in a veil of night The past always closing up behind I've been searching all my life And just want to get this right It felt like in the past we had each other's backs Why did I believe that? All of the people would rather see Each other's failures on the big screen They might find the distance reassuring But their words really mean nothing to me And living in fear of their sifting eyes And fickle pretensions Really I'd rather die Doubt and dejection bubble up in me Is this it? is this different from anything else? I just want to know- If happiness is always just a flash in a pan I've been trying to understand All the things that drive me on while everything around Is all burning to the ground It's always lurked in the background A little spark within the doubt The need pours out in a river of sound Drowning out the endless listlessness "This is something I can't live without" In every moment the light shines twice as bright Though cold envelops the fading life inside I vie for closure of the mind that's evaded my eyes I see the smoke filling the sky spelling out "at least you tried" The wonder and mystery dissolve in the nascent routine I cling to the feeling but my grip is slowly slipping I used to dream of this worn-out endless road I used to lust for all the streets that I'd never known I used to feel so trapped inside all the walls of my home I used to get lonely Now I'm never alone This is what I want