Addicted

I could choose to end it here, but it's become a part of me Living life without sabotage, why does it ring so empty? (I'm so empty) I'm attached to something that only destroys The blessing of a life I have Wasting time taking part in it, yet I fall for it without fail So far in and I'm convinced it'll be a part of me Can't seem to let it go though it kills me And I can't stop Count the days it takes off of my life Count the times it weakens me Pretending I am happy as it pulls me deeper into its grasp I can quit I don't need help I must confess that I don't want help So far in and I'm convinced it'll be a part of me Can't seem to let it go though it kills me (Why can't I stop?) Yet I'm attached to something less Than what God has promised me It keeps consuming me too easily and I can't stop Carelessly dancing with demons unaware of their intentions I pretend I have control, like I have a choice (what's my choice?) Moved by the toxicity, I tell myself to keep on fighting These cues, consuming All I need is this urge to Fade Before it's me that disappears I've scarred myself with this I crave what's killing me So far in and I'm convinced it'll be a part of me Can't seem to let it go though it kills me (Why can't I stop?) Yet I'm attached to something less Than what God has promised me It keeps consuming me too easily and I can't stop I can quit I don't need help I must confess that I don't want help Once again I've been caught It's killing me but I can't stop So far in and I'm convinced it'll be a part of me Can't seem to let it go though it kills me Why can't I stop? Yet I'm attached to something less Than what God has promised me It keeps consuming me too easily and I can't stop