LABEL REJECT

Sat in the back of the cab and I'm thinking What woulda happened if I hada gave up Pain in mum's eyes when my dad lied still Can't cry won't mess up her makeup Bro on my phone and he told me what they done Told him I'm active told me to Say nun I was hater when bro had them trainers I want the same ones I had to save up Never found no safe haven I was alone like most of the day Everything that I love end up going away Everytime I progress it gets thrown in my face I see the world in a whole other shade Ever since that Day everything turned grey Settled for less I know, I'm ashamed I know I'm a mess don't need no one to say it My heart went cold and I couldn't just shiver Don't see myself when I look in my the mirror Ignoring my health so I fuck up my liver I knew I was Destined for suttin much bigger My life turned any means for the sika Drank more and then I got sicker Go up the stairs and my heartrate quicker I'm Ringing and hoping my marj pick up Mum didn't raise no quitter But I lost my way after footie Spent my whole wage on liquor If not I'm spinning that shit in the bookies Back then I'd only rap round the mandem Truth is I didn't see what they see in me Knew I was hard but that didn't mean shit I was on edge begging someone to push me Hit stu in my work clothes COVID hit im on zero hours I didn't get furloughed Found my drive I put it in turbo Everything ready to go Apart from me I had things that I couldn't let go Feelings I couldn't control Bro said fuck it let's go Age 23 I dropped my first vid I Racked up a million views in a month Still Didn't think I was doing enough I spent my last tenner for juice in my cup Everyone shouting me cause I'm bubbling Truth is didn't who I could trust Labels were on man I saw the p's contract Broski I knew I was fucked Weighing the pro's and cons Deep down I knew I cant miss opportunity Soon as I signed my rights That shit went left My whole life under scrunity I hate being told what to do And they wanna do me Turned me to mutiny How can you sign me for what I was doing Then try tell me what I couldn't be All this time my name getting bigger When I'm about I feel everyone preeing Get burst everyday I run from the truth I knew it was there just didn't wanna see it When you got money You see through the lies I felt alive but didn't wanna be it I told my driver pull over stood over the bridge Didnt think that the world need me in I had so much hate in my heart When I take it apart It's the love that made me I didn't think no one could miss me only The thought of my Mum that saved me I booked a cab back to the Main street Look at the places this shit could take me Week later got dropped by my label I spent all the bread now I'm here looking crazy A year half tryna find myself Needed help cause my head in the gutter I took a step back and looked at my pack And saw how they Step on each other Everyone I had back then lost interest So I made a choice I ain't telling them nothing 10 thousand hours went to the mountain Came back 10 times better with substance I got problem I had hands to feed and I had no p left Wanna succeed life ain't smooth sailing Need everyone's hands on sea deck Starting again gotta go to the bottom My motto and plan just reset Now Bro's tryna fly up suh And he's stuck in a average speed check Fuck what they label me I Couldn't find my feet I was stuck in the deep end I get love in the street To the industry im the label reject All I've done is made you look Ima crook cause I ain't even made them see yet You don't even know what it took If you live by the book that's pain and regret Only just got the ball rolling Bro on my shoulder He's saying it's me next Do wrong it'll come back round Get up when I'm down that's basic reflex I need a change of scenery Stare at the wall when I'm depressed These demons haven't left me yet From I open eyes wanna see death Now I got everything patterned When I'm gone I beg you don't bread me The new shit got em feeling a man When I needed a hand swear everyone left me All I've got is my word my balls and my tech fleece Anyway yeah boss just pull in right here on the left please