Loss (Grief)

Changing

My God I'm sacred what the pain brings

I liked it better the way it was

We were something else

Now I'm bedside

Oh what I'd give for a joyride

The ones we'd take after midnight

Window surfing our hands through the air

Oh I'm waiting

There's something in me that's shaking

I'm acting fine but I'm faking

Cause' I see you but there's nothing there

So I kiss you

You're so cold to the touch

And as I'm fixing the pillows

I am wondering if I've said enough

I don't wanna lose you

Is there any other way?

I tried to make amends with God

But He turned the other way

Is it possible where

I go and you can stay?

I'll be waiting for the answer

While our memories replay

Holy

11th hour arrives

The sun is starting to rise up

I'm in awe but fucking terrified

And we're counting

All your in and your exhales

Witnessing all your details

While darkness came & entered the room

Yeah we're present

All the words and the prayers sent

All the heads and the necks bend down

I am certain it will happen soon

Silence…

The loudest sound in the world

Your Spirit moves and it twirls above me

I'm so proud of you girl

But I don't wanna lose you

Is there any other way?

I tried to make amends with God

But He turned the other way

Is it possible where

I go and you can stay?

Ill be waiting for the answer

While our memories replay

*the beautiful sound of grieving*

Let our memories replay

Mournin'

Recognized what it's showin'

Oh it comes & it's going

Just as the wind is blows

And I'm changing

My thoughts rearranging

I'm not as sacred as I once was

Losing you gave me deep love

Gave me deep love

Losing you gave me deep love